Day 351 - Back Squats

2012 - the year of the non-goal.  I have been reading a really great book called "Thick Face, Black Heart" and while I am only half way through the book, it has made me think a lot about goals and where I am headed in my training and in my life.  I used to be very driven and motivated and lived every single day by goals.  I think that's part of my control issues.  For at least the last year I have been living without goals.  Just taking life day by day.  My stress level is way down.  And last week I came to the conclusion that maybe instead of setting goals and trying to control our lives, maybe the secret to life is to just let life come at us and to try to have the strength and wisdom to deal with it as it comes.  Isn't that what CrossFit is all about - being prepared for anything?  If we knew tomorrow's WOD was going to be dead lifts and the following day was going to be dead lifts, we would practice dead lifts and get really good at dead lifts.  That's not how we train.  We don't know what tomorrow's WOD will be.  But we are mentally and physically prepared for whatever it is.   So I am not setting a fitness goal this year - I am just going to do my best every single day.  At least I thought I was.  


Today was back squats.  My back squats are finally progressing again.  For an entire year I was afraid of falling and my weight didn't progress AT ALL.  I stayed at 125# for almost the entire year.  Last week I had a #155 one rep max. Today we did 5 sets of 3 heavy reps.  I put #130 on the bar and felt pretty good about that (it's more than #125).  But then my workout partner Lisa who I was sharing a bar with, put #160 on the bar.  And she lifted it like it was nothing.  And it made me wish I was as strong as Lisa.  Not exactly being happy with my own personal best.  Good reminder not to compare myself to other people in the gym - I'm going to do MY best this year.  I AM going to do my best this year.  I am.  

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